Red light of dawn

Ich habe die power!

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 10:46:19 GMT

Sister is finally taking her beauceron's away tonight. yay.
The addition of these two beings - magnificent canines though they may be - has made our life hell. Considering they can't be kept in the same space as our girls - nor in the same space with our boy - we've had to rotate our animals in shifts of three. Since my usual day cycle has me sleeping while mom works, I've had to try to adapt to the extra doggies which means I've been sleeping in bouts of three hours for all this time. Often enough this means I can get two bursts of sleep a day, ranging from one to three REM cycles each. This is nowhere near enough, and I'm at the end of rope - enough so that for the first time I'm actually happy my friend left town and won't be playing D&D so I can sleep.

Said friend also got me addicted to Stargåte, the bastard. It always happens - I go through years with nothing interesting to watch, and when I finally do find something, somebody else presents me some other crap, and the shite piles up. So this time when my friend did this, I was in the middle of watching Gokujou seitokai, Higurashi no nakukoro ni kai, and Magical lyrical girl Nanoha A's - not to mention the ongoing shows I slavishly watch (Naruto shippuuden, Bleach, Heroes, Supernatural), Family Guy's new season (which actually is a good one, for a change), and the American dad's new season... Where was I?
That's right, during all this, he gets me to start watching Stargåte. from the first season. Of SG-1. You couldn't find a series with any more seasons for me to do, could you!?
...It is a good series, though. And makes me wish I had more HD space - which reminds me I found this deal from Sonera that if you get your interwebs from them, they'll give yo ua free new modem and an awesome deal with a computer of your choice.
So I was thinking I might do that, get myself a laptop and make that my linux box. That'd be so sweet, I could be staring at two monitors at the same time. I mean, technically I could now, but it's awkward because the table only has tht much space.
...But yeah, I do like Stargåte. Only at season 2's end now, and according to all the stories I hear it's only going to get better.

Meh, I'm ranty. Very tired atm, and I just got from taking out the dogs. Will probly sleep soon. Spent another night trying to make a character for NWN2. It's sort of amusing, I've had Mask of the Betrayer for over a month now, and I haven't made it past character creation.
Part of me's saying I just do it to piss snow off, on some subconscious level. Even if I wasn't, it's working so that's amusing enough.

Ugh, and I need to finish my mutant character for this sci-fi game before my friend gets back. That's cool though, I like this guy. ...And apparently my train of thought's skipping tracks all over the place. Snow's telling me to just take my paws off the keyboard and go to bed already. I think I'll do just that.
Good night.

Dear diary

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 15:31:17 GMT

A strange enough coincidense happened today, worth enough to be posted here.
Today - sunday, eleventh of november two-thousand and seven - one of our doggies had puppies, four puppies, as it were.
A happy enough incident in and on itself, but more to the point the firstborn came out at 1:07 AM (local mandrake time) - and the birth of yours truly happened near twentyeight years ago, shy only fourteen minutes. It was an amusing enough coincidense, and left me hoping one of the four would've been born closer to my 1:21 AM.

As it were, Laura (the schäfer mother, the puppies are likewise purebred schäferhund) was taken to a vet immediately following the birth of the first one due to complications, which had me worrying immensely over her life and those of the wee ones. Luckily, nothing worse happened but me fretting over things, and the event was left joyful.
Remains to be seen how long the situation persists, considering said event just upped our household canine count from six to ten.

I'd pity the cat if she wasn't such a bad-ass.

maybe

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 22:08:58 GMT

Yes or no question.
A question that by definition requires an affimative or dissenting reply to be answered.
e.g. "Would you like some ice cream?" accepts an affirming or negating response to answer the inquirer. e.g. "Yes, I would very much like some ice cream, thank you."
"Maybe" however, is NO FUCKING KIND OF AN ANSWER!

Okay, so if I'm in the park, some cutied-up wee toddler runs up to me when i'm on the ice cream stand with her mom and looks really ice-cream hungry so I ask her if she wants ice cream (with a glance to her mom of course to see if that's okay - though in my opinion the bastard should well be off feeding her own offspring but I digress as that's besides the point. To begin with, I wouldn't be caught dead buying ice cream on one of those stands. Hypothetical scenario), and she glances to her mom too and says "maybe..." though her expression and tone of voice clearly imply an affirmative - this is fine.
But until they invent a way to deliver that expression of yours on the internet, a reply of "maybe" does not give me either an affirmative or a negative answer!
I can not read minds, I can not read to the depths of your soul and see what it is your Heart Truly Yearns For (not online, anyway), so if your answer to my cute lil' Yes or No -question happens to be a fucking "maybe" and then shutting up for half an hour, I have no choice but to ask you again!

Like I told (ranted) at someone else already; if we weren't online, there's plenty excuses. Maybe you got something in your ear. Maybe the background noise is annoying. Maybe I'm hung to the fucking over and my voice sounds a worse growl than that of a dying bear on crack - that's fine. I'll ask again. Twice even. Then I give up, because you're quite possibly a) retarded, b) drunk, c) an asshole, d) not worth the time this is taking, or e) all of the above.
But we are online, and you clearly have the transcript still up and so can go ahead and read my question as fucking many times over as you want, there is zero reasons for me to retype it!

I asked you a question. So before I get a response, I'm obliged to wait for your reply, because let's face it, asking a friend go play tennis and then join some other friends at the pool before you get a response is just me being a jackass.
Having said that, I'll repeat: I asked you a question. Which means I'm waiting an answer to it, because doing otherwise would be bad form from my part. You do not give me an answer, I have no choice but to ask again. And again. And again. And again.
You see where I'm getting at here?
Even though I could just copy and paste my question and then spam that to your medium of choice until your ears bleed, the fact of the matter is I hate repeating myself! To top this off, it makes me sound like I'm nagging, and I don't want to nag, but I asked you an honest and cheerful question, and you are not playing ball.

Is "maybe" some secret thing I don't quite grasp? Is it something people just type as a response and wait for me to make up their minds for them? Is me asking a simple and effective yes or no question some manner of code for "lets go burn a church in Oslo"? Is it honestly that hard to make up your mind because if it is - please tell me! Maybe I can help you by offering new viewpoints - if your answer is no please tell me! I am not going to chew your face off.
All I want is a simple word reflecting what you feel like is the right answer.
Yes.
No.
Until you give me either one of those answers, my options are to keep nagging or give up and go do something else. Either way, that makes me the bastard.

PS. 13 weeks without posting? Wish I could call that a record.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 03:52:02 GMT

Eragon wasn't... too good. But it wasn't so bad either, I'd have heard it sucked ass but meh. It wasn't too bad. The acting in places was sub-par, the combat scenes... even worse, special effects... nothing really noteworthy. But I love Robert Carlyle, and he fits his role - nothing short of perfect. If Carnage will be in Spiderman 4, I hold to my point that Robert Carlyle would make for one of the best choices to play his part. Accent and everything.
Of course, Carlyle is scottish, Cassidy is irish. But I'm sure he could pull it off nonetheless.

Sunshine was a surprise. This movie went way beyond my expectations, I still wouldn't name it the top-of-my-list in sci-fi movies (that spot still belongs to Alien), but a delightful surprise in any case. Of course I started watching the movie expecting a below-average, high-budget shiny movie with shitty plot and worse acting, so you really can only go up I guess. That as it may, I did like this movie, well worth the money to rent.

Next was another pleasant surprise. Somewhat of an original plot, I've always been partial to reluctant heroes, and there's even Columbo! Not much more you could ask. Well, I have a beef with the ending, but you'll have to watch the movie to know what I mean~

Trying to plot my AD&D game. I think I'm aiming a bit too high again, considering mixing up the Forgotten realms stuff my players are going through with a brief stint in the Scarred lands, or possibly Eberron. The characters are still low level - three, as it were - but I'm thinking I may make something to above effect when they get around to... say ten to fifteen range. Maybe. Have a few fun ideas I wouldn't mind trying out.
In part hoping I could've gone somewhere with my Exalted game, but then I ran out of players so I guess that's one I can't blame on myself if I tried.
And the character I play on tabletop is a dragon trapped in human form~
Which is sort of fun, she's slowly recovering her (white)dragon abilities, which bring a whole level of trouble on their own. Like the freezing aura she can't subdue or control. Luckily she herself is resistant enough to cold temperatures, but regardless it's starting to make social interactions a touch difficult.

Still no sign of the new Naruto shippuuden episode. I bet they're making a double again.
The Bleach episode was a letdown, I wish they'd just go on with the main plot more (or show Hiyori more, love Hiyori). Guess that'll wait until next week.
Tengen toppa Gurren-Lagann was similarly disappointing, mostly because of a spoiler I won't go into. Plus I hate Ina. I probly wouldn't hate her so much if her voice wasn't so bloody annoying, but it is, so I hate her, and I hope she dies a painful and bloody death. Sometime soon.
Running out of luck in trying to find proper subs for Renkin San-kyuu magical pokaan. Or the OAVs for that matter. For some reason my codecs don't like the GMB subs. Frustrating to no end.

I should also finish watching all these Rockman episodes to get them off my bloody machine already.
Starcraft II is coming! horrah!

Dear diary

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 18:02:17 GMT

I realize I neglect this thing by only posting an entry roughly once in eleven years, but it's not that I deliberately do so. In fact quite the opposite, I do so simply out of not having anything to say.
Instead of bothering you with useless prattle, I opt not to and just not update. I think it's more convenient this way - but regardless to that; what a boring life I must live.
Even with the increased worktimes as of late ...did I tell you about that? I seem to think I told somebody about it, just not sure who. Anyway, we've been moved up at work, doing monday to friday, four hours a day in sometime between 5 AM and noon. Flexible in that regard, if I go in at 5 AM, I leave at 9 AM. Go in at 8 AM, you leave at noon, all that fun stuff. Sometimes they set the time for me, but that's rare and really pointless to even mention, anyhow; even with the increased worktimes as of late I'm bored.
Watching a lot of anime, sure, but all four of my shows are still in prog, so there's a limit to what I can watch. I could get more shows I guess, but can't be arsed to. Even moreso, it's hard to come up with shows you'd like to watch.
I was thinking of buying a DSlite, since I do get more money now, but then I saw this nifty sketchpad thingier I might go for, instead. And get to the business of drawing again.
Besdies which, I already have a ps2, Xbox, and a gamecube I make a point of ignoring, so I don't know if adding a DSlite to that pile would be such a good idea.
Back to my point, since I'm sure I had one; I probly should go out and do stuff sometimes.
Like go fishing. A lot of my friends (in fact all my offline friends) fish a lot. And to make it clear, these "offline friends" I mention number a grand total of 3.
But I don't like fishing. In fact I find the idea of sitting in one spot for three hours staring at a fishing line nothing short of nauseating. And the rewards for getting a big fish? You get to do more work by cleaning it up and cooking it. Maybe get some bucks from the local grocer, which goes nowhere near to covering the money you put into fishing gear / permits.
I do roleplay offline still. But it's moments like these, when my friends are away that make me bored. I could go play FFXI or L2, but if I went and started on that... who knows when I could break the addiction again.
Maybe I'll go watch a movie. Just felt like ranting, so the existence of this journal has some meaning.
Oh, on the subject of movies I've watched.
Spiderman 3. Good, but they raped Venom (figuratively).
Passion of the Christ. Fun movie, but I didn't see any of the blood and gore people keep bitching about.
PotC At world's end. Awesome. Awesome awesome awesome. Little I didn't expect, but awesome.
The Covenant. I really don't know why I even watched this. I guess it's because Harlin wrote it, giving it a small sense of patriotism. But in retrospect I really shouldn't have. Witches and frat parties do. not. mix.
Stay alive. I really don't now why I watched this, either. Saw a commentary at a local mag about it. If you want to enjoy this movie, I suggest you go check out their imdb page and just read the goofs section. It'll be a lot more entertaining than the movie, trust me.
Saw 1, 2 and 3. I consider these one movie, with 4 continuing on it when it arrives. I loved these three, but you may want to take that with a grain of salt since I've heard a lot of people haven't. I think the movies get better toward the end blood and gore-wise, but the characters... nn, I'm not saying anything at the risk someone who's intending to watch is reading. I hate spoilers.
All that said, I think I'll go watch Long kiss goodnight and reminisce on the times when Harlin wrote decent movies.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 21:11:58 GMT

Blar.
That about sums today pretty well. Blar.
I think I'm fast losing my grasp of roleplaying, or atleast making of characters.
In FFXI I need to decide a job. RDM70,WHM43,BLM57,WAR24,DRK25blahblahblaheverythingsomething. I think I'm going WHM, I don't know. Too tired to think now, too hungry to sleep, too lazy to eat.
Work sucked.
There were too many people working, because one guy had to make do for his day off earlier. Which meant that apart from handling the mail I had nothing to do all day. Got home, logged into FFXI, and been fishing carp since. Oh, I did exp my npc tarutaru some, that was fun. Stupid PLD anticans. And I skilled up my cooking - about time I got rid of all that honey. Got my fishing off amateur rank, as well.
I bought three nifty books from work. Though only one of'm I'm looking forward to reading, it's this book about this woman - turned twenty years of age, who worked as a maid to a household with no name worth mentioning, and on the first page she dies of some chest disease.
The whole book is describing her life as it led to her death, very well written. 'tis beautiful.
But yeah, so I buy these three books - the one mentioned, then one of Beatles and one of c++ (that in itself is a part of a fun story, I actually bought this book to console myself of the fact that I scored a high positive on a test whether or not I'm addicted to the internet - only thing that didn't match was do I use computers at work or not), and a small baggy to carry them in.
These baggies are... flimsy. I coulda wrapped my books in toilet paper and it would've been more durable. So of course when I'm driving my bike home, the bag breaks and my three books scatter all over the snowy sidewalk. Lovely.
I stopped at a store later to buy a proper bag, and ranted to the poor woman working there about the library's paper bags so I forgot to give her money for my purchases. She had to prompt it from me twice, cos there were other people to serve. I must've been pretty red in the face when I did manage to apologize, pay and leave.
Then came the whole FFXI spiel thing and blar.
I should sleep. Maybe do some more fishing tomorrow...

edit; typos.
One day I'll learn to type.

"Ich habe Pläne, große Pläne"

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 02:08:34 GMT

There's one show in the week I want to watch. Namely, Oz. I make it a point to record each and every episode, each week Monday at 23:25 hours-ish. Now this week I was very tired, so I went to sleep and asked for other people to tape it.
They agreed; had they not have, I would've stayed awake until it began, and then went to sleep. So I take the tape, rewind it into place and leave it on top of the living room telly, as I told people I would. So I wake up at night to watch it and realize; they had rewinded it some more.
That's right, on the tape that had five episodes (I've taped them all so far, from season 1, episode 1) this the sixth one, was recorded starting halfway of episode 4, ending sometime past halfway of episode five.
Strangely, I'm not too upset. I guess after three times of trying (that's how many times I've seen them rerun it) to tape all the episodes and failing, I've gotten used to the idea of being unsuccesful.
I just can't wait to hear what happened, in the morning.

On another note, I just watched Norton's "the Illusionist" last night. Really a good movie, quite possibly the favorite one of mine, that stars Norton. That or "American History X", it's a tough choice. Still have "The Descent" and "Insomnia" to watch, both of whom go widely recommended.
Or atleast somewhat recommended, I guess.

On other news, I made 3 bard levels last night, in FFXI. Hoping to get it to 35 by the end of the week.

And I don't know which one of my lil' mood-foxies to use again, so I'm going to opt for one I haven't seen before. Here goes!

My dogs are dumber than yours.

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 12:42:57 GMT

So I slept only two hours tonight. Didn't go to work as a result, in the hopes I'd sleep some more. No such luck it appears, since I couldn't sleep. That's fine, I got a level for my bard in FFXI. Now I'm tired again, after having asked a friend to come over so we can play D&D.
It's an annoying feeling, being unable to decide if you're awake or not. I don't think I am, but I can't sleep. Almost euphoric, you're drifting in and out of stuff.
One moment you're heating a pizza, the next you're sitting by the computer, there's no transitory - or if one exists, it's blurred. And suddenly you find yourself chuckling at something that happened several days ago - something not particularly funny in the first place.
I don't even know why I'm typing this. Probly to have something to do until sister arrives to steal teh intrawebs. Oh, and because I haven't updated in aeons. But that's a story for some other day. Odds are I'll forget all about it when - if ever -I proper wake up.

whee~

Work.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 09:53:20 GMT

Mothers; Please educate your nefarious offspring to realize some respect towards other people's property. And while you're at it, please make them realize that library books =/= public property.
Children; If you really feel it's necessary to write down the juvenile hormone-induced rantings that you - on a spur of the moment - consider hilarious for everyone else to read, on a library book, please. Either kill yourself before you pick up that pen, or use an ink pen. I know that pencil is probably the only thing your pocket money could afford after stuffing your face at the cafeteria not too far off, but if you really feel it necessary to ruin the things other people might enjoy reading, atleast use an ink pen. That way the people working the back rooms do not have to waste an hour erasing your idle ramblings from said book, just so the city could save an euro. I, for one, was tempted to just buy that fucking book so I wouldn't have to go through the chore of erasing your stupid comedy. Only you are laughing, you childish hellspawn. Next time you want to doodle something stupid, I suggest using a napkin.

- Your irritated librarian.

of things Fluffy

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 08:34:55 GMT

We have a pair of new chincillas.
They're called Ninja and Musti (Musta translates to black, so Musti would be something like Blackie, I guess), and they drive our dogs ballistic for some reason. We've had our old chincilla, Onni(Luck), around for ages, and not a peep he draws from our dogs. Now these two arrive, and they're constantly poking their noses into the gage and barking.
I love cillas. I just have to be extra-special careful not to poke in my finger cos I don't know if these guys bite. My Onni doesn't bite.

Dawn

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 03:02:56 GMT

Woke up at ~4:30 AM. This isn't a very healthy thing, I think to myself walking outside after I'm done cleaning up after the dogs - I realized I'd neglected them most of yesterday before sleep, and then by sleeping that long. Machinelike, I clean up after them, take out the trash, and light up a smoke. I reflect, gazing at the starless nightsky - my first notion was something along the lines how I wish it'd be colder, so I could see the aurora borealis. Leaning down on the small fence we've got set up, I find myself thinking how nice it'd be to have a fire. And not just a campfire, something huge. A building on fire, a blazing inferno that'd keep people warm far away. Maybe a forest.
When I got out of bed I almost immediately logged in and started reading about Tsujisan; AKA "girl A" or "Nevada". Then the other schoolkid murders in Japan. Like the 13-year old who killed a schoolmate and planted his head on a pike infront of the school. I don't know if this means anything.
I get this odd sensation that something's broken inside me, and the funny thing is I don't really mind.
Maybe it'll go away when I wake up properly. My ataraxia, then, comes when I'm not quite awake yet.
Incoherent thoughts, that aren't really even connected any way.
And then you find yourself talking to your monitor.
Reflection. I should go wake myself up.

Boredom be thy name

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 01:02:05 GMT

Changeling was cancelled today and it makes me sad. So I get to whine to you, my journal, some more. I should probably get to doing all the things I've forever postponed doing but I don't really want to. You know that feeling when you're late for school and decide to just skip the whole day since the very concept of arriving late to class makes you feel nauseous? That's where I am now, I've postponed this drek so long it's starting to feel like I'm postponing it just for the sake of never having to deal with it.
The past week has happily gone by playing tabletop RPGs with friends. I've picked up a really really old character of mine, and started a whole new one. I don't know which one I like more, they both work for the Thieves' Guild in this small city of Archer's Hill. This has prompted me to start writing new stuff for the characters too - I'm not much of a writer, but I do like inventing things and new rules. Which is why I like this system we do with my friends - we've built it entirely out of scratch, and there's always new things to invent, new rules to develope, and new secrets to uncover.
Felt a bit sick to my stomach earlier, but I think it's starting to pass now *knocks on wood*. Largely I feel bored, finished watching the first season of Vandread and I don't feel like immediately jumping to the second. I liked what I saw though, it's a fun anime. Sort of reminds you of Saber Marionette J, but with reversed roles, and quite the different setting. Sort of.
I haven't had any coffee today. Oddly I don't feel like really having any, either.
I should go buy more sugar today. Taking care of four dogs is cake compared to the last time mom left home.
Maybe I should just go an get some money off the bank and buy myself something for once. I haven't bought myself anything really fun in years. I have the urge to just get some €100 from the bank an then just hit the toy store, buying all forms of stupid, purely on a whim. Stuff like legos. Yeah, legos, I love those guys. And... stuff. Treat myself to a cup at the cafeteria downtown. Leave the room and just go have fun, or something.
Or not.
Too lazy.

Doodle me this

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 01:00:09 GMT

I've started drawing again.
Heccy dared me to draw up my comic of Sphinx, my FFXI character. He wrote this fantastic lil' story of my wee mithra whom I really like as a character but never got around to roleplaying - barring, that is, a quick appearance in which I sort of stumbled into a few roleplayers and decided to play along...okay, so I didn't stumble upon them as much as sorta noticed some familiar characters in the zone and decided to go say hi and then abruptly changed my mind upon noticing they were, in fact, Rping.
But I digress.
I noticed I don't do much drawing anymore, and whenever I start on doing this comic I expect way too much of myself. I just won't be happy with a page until it's perfect, and of course it never is. Which has led to me binning about two dozen "near-finished" drawings. I'm thinking I should start drawing my characters again. I kind of tried to make an image of a few characters I have on tabletop, but not being very successful. It's always some kind of minor thing that goes wrong that I just don't like. Like... an earring that looks odd. Waterflask that shouldn't be hanging the way it's hanging. Sword held in an odd angle. Something that my friend tells me he doesn't even realize exists.
Am I a perfectionist?
Am I not good enough at drawing to meet even the standards - I think are suitably low - I set myself?
Am I dwelling on this too much?
Only time will tell, I guess. In the meantime, it's back to the drawing board for me.

PS; The color of my newfound love is pizza.

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 00:53:37 GMT

I am so god damn tired right now.
And it's the annoying kind of tired - not tired enough to sleep, but not awake enough to think straight.
Mother's left home for a few weeks again, but I'm going to insist on being happy about it since it is her vacation and she seems to be enjoying it. This time she left me with only four dogs to care of, which I consider a blessing. Atleast these four are easy to look after. I will not, however, tolerate the bullshit about sister's taping of fucking Big Brother for long. She doesn't have the channel that airs it, so I have to tape it. And since the timer is recording mom's programs, I have to keep switching tapes. She knows that I go to sleep around 2 PM each day, and she still insists to not drive here and switch the goddamn tapes herself, which means I've managed an average of 4 hours of sleep per night, for the past few days. And the durations I've stayed awake have extended - every one of those days - well past 24 hours each.

Craven's Last House on the Left was a fucking disappointment. Mother of all the gore flicks, my ass. Only thing revolting in that movie was the lesbian girl's hairdo, the only thing scary about it was the revelation these people are actually professional actors, and the only thing comical about it was one of the actors being named Gaylord. I found nothing cool about this movie, save the fact it allowed me to nap between things "happening", and the Blair witch project did a lot better job at that.
But maybe there's a reason I don't review movies for a living.

Underworld Evolution I did enjoy. Sure it had its annoying mushy bits, but all in all I did find it much more enjoyable than the original. Maybe because the lycans in this movie took a lot more primitive aspect, and I loved the glances to the past. The action scenes were well enough played, so all in all a good watch for me.
And I love what I've seen of Vandread so far. Yummy.

I have to get myself around to reading books so I can play in this Eberron game. Also have to make a character for said game. Or finish the one I'm toying with anyway. Currently playing with the idea of a human artificer... I was thinking either that or a mage of some kind... But I think I'll stay true to my original idea, and indeed stay an artificer. First ideas tend to be the best ones.

D:

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 21:07:17 GMT

You are Longhorn, the unreleased new version of Windows. No one knows much about you. You’re very mysterious, but will you ever be released?

Of books and noisy cicadas.

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 20:27:15 GMT

First day of working at the library was today.
It wasn't too bad. In fact it might have been fun. All kinds of gems I found, some kind of book hand-written in German from the year 1747. A bible from the year 1821 - written in the old finnish I've never before even read. Back from the days while the Finnish language hadn't formed proper yet, so it had semblances to Swedish. This one actually had wooden covers to it. I've never before seen a book bound in wood before, either. The pages were old, the kind you'd become extra-special careful with, simply out of fear of breaking them. The 1747's book had its first page all crumbled up, and I remember thinking what the hell; who could've done that? I was almost insulted.
Other than this problem, the work wasn't too cool. I got to stamp in magazines and newspapers, which wasn't too bad. The taking out of old magazines and storing them in the backroom wasn't too bad either, but then I had to start stamping out books that weren't being loaned anymore. This was a serious annoyance to my back, because I'd have these stacks of books I had to haul downstairs into one of the wee storagerooms they have. It wouldn't have been too bad either, had I not stayed up 24 hours prior to going there. As it was, though, my back kept hurting, I was thirsty and hungry, and at the end of my shift was actually debating just falling asleep by the curb outside. Note to self; next time do sleep before work.

I have a lot of DVDs to watch now. Movies I haven't seen are; Transporter 1 & 2, Underworld Evolution, National treasure, The resurrected, From Beyond, Silent Hill, the Call of Cthulhu, and Last house on the left. You could almost form a coherent sentence with these; The Call of Cthulhu national treasure from beyond Silent hill, the last house on the left. I also have the two Vandread OAVs now to watch; Taidouhen and Gekitouhen, as well as the two seasons these recap (I think?). I still have to finish Fate / Stay night, Noir, Elfen Lied and Chrno crusade. Focus, woman!
I should also catch up on Higurashi no naku koro ni. Blargh.

Ph'nglui mglw'bafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn!

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 15:27:04 GMT

woo, last day of taking care of the dogs.
Looks like I'm also starting off on the slow foot of updating this little thing, concerning a week's passed and I haven't. I guess I just have that problem of putting thoughts of mine on paper / written format like that. Well, this isn't always a problem. Not with creative work atleast. But I find myself a rather poor writer in either case. Maybe that's why. I also have this silly notion that if I write it down *gasp* maybe somebody'll read it! Silly, I know, particularly when you consider that's exactly why I'm keeping this thing in the first place. I guess it's just a sticky paranoia. I don't know where it stems from, since to my knowledge I haven't had any childhood traumas or anything of that like to boast.
Because only the exciting people get childhood traumas.

Season two of The Transformers is finally here! *glee* All the childhood memories that came back watching the first season~ I can't wait to start watching this. I'm waiting for mom to come home, and then for things to calm down, before I break out the cookies and hot chocolate and start watching.
No amount of canine joy that may come from the shift in the matriarchal reign will ruin my moment!
Changeling game is today, also. Which is always fun, I love playing in Changeling. Often it makes me sad to realize this game - and a smattering of nigh-plotless IC chat sessions - is all that remains from the ~10 games a week I used to play in, with all my old friends. But, atleast it's something. And something's better than nothing.

I should start on my MMO's again. I ran the update of FFXI, and I tried to run the update of Lineage II, but my computer refused to cooperate with me on this. Repeatedly, I hammered on the icon to launch the thrice-accursed program (read; tried clicking the stupid quickstart icon twice), but to no avail! The concept of forever being denied my joys of updating my game became very real. Then again I probably couldn't be arsed to play it anyway.
I do like Lineage II, though. I don't know if I like it more than FFXI. The two are so different, but that may be because I'm but a humble noob in the former, and have something of a history (started at US PC release) in the latter. What I do like about Lineage II is the end-game content. You actually need multiple jobs at level über to even participate in a lot of the endgame content, so I understand. Alas, my poor dwarfette is but level 22. I tried making friends a few times. A fellow in particular, going by the name Khlmcp1, piqued her interest as the two grew up together fighting orcs and golems side by side. But the man paid no attention to her poorly-made attempts to socialize. I realize my Ranlea isn't the image of beauty the elves paint, nor are her charms the level that the humans can boast, but I have to admit I was hoping for a reaction.
Alas, being a dwarf means my Ranlea grew up in a town inhabited by the mindless zombies I've later come to know as "bots", which made the art of social interaction a sadly lost one to my budding artisan. Maybe that's why Khlmcp1 - my first friend in the game, went to such lengths to ignore me. He probably thought I too was a bot.
It was amusing the first time I was actually out of the town. In case you weren't aware, in Lineage II when you die you respawn at the Gatekeeper of the nearest friendly city. I used my free Gatekeeper Token in the dwarf village, teleported into this other city - a small hamlet of a city that is, and give the Gatekeeper there the Token the dwarf council member - whose name escapes me at the moment, gave as reward for a Quest (something about food, I think?). This continues as I thirst to see new towns and pople who actually talk, and in the end Ranlea's left penniless and across the world from Dwarf Village. So I start a panicked run past the Entire World, dying a few times only to respawn some ways ahead or behind on my journey.
I know I'm a poor storyteller, but this was nonetheless one of my best days in playing Lineage II.
I think I like the home point system of Final Fantasy better, personally. It adds more to the fun of randomly exploring when you face the risk of "back to square 1" upon death. But oh well. It's a small peeve.
Which game do I like better? Can't really say. If Final Fantasy supported soloplay near as well as Lineage II, my answer would be an easy one. As things are, I really can't say which I like more. Final Fantasy as a game I think is better. But in Lineage II if I want to make exp, I don't have to suffer idiots to do that (or wait two weeks LFP if I happen to be DRG - no offense Heccy).
Finally, if I had to change something in FFXI, I'd add in the /spit emote from WoW. I don't care what you think, to me that's just awesome++.

Movies! I want to see new movies. Oh, and that reminds me, I used to be quite the collector of Lovecraft books back in... Well, I'll say "High School", since that's what I've taken to calling that place. Of course it's not really high school (in the sense that Americans call high school, but it's close enough in age group and theme to serve my point), but that's a rant for another time.
In high school, then, I was quite the collector of Lovecraft's work, and I just found my hoard of books a few days past. I'm eagerly awaiting, now, for a moment in which I can calm down enough to just lay down and read. Maybe buy a bottle of some cheap red wine and chocolate. Then take a chair to the balcony (or dust off the hammoc, I love hammocs) and just start reading.
I want to watch movies, all the fun stuff being released in America now. Snakes on a Plane being the top of my list, I have to see that movie god damnit. Silent hill is another one I have to see. I don't really expect it to be any good, but I want to see it anyway. Dead man's chest, as well. This I haven't seen because I'm lazy, even though it is already being shown in local theaters. And then a bunch of other crap movies I've been putting on watching for the past year or so. Must watch!

Changeling is today. And it will be fun. Or people will die.

bleh

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:07:09 GMT

woo, first post.

...yeah. Today's been an odd day, that's for sure.
Well, the days as of late have seen the return of many old friends to the roleplaying scene.

Which also made me find myself to be very people-a-phobic, and that's why I still cling to ancient chatrooms for roleplaying, because that's where the people I used to know, grew up in. Sadly, these people have since moved on, whilst I, I get to whine to online journals about it.
C'est la vie.

But, Happiness!
I can't wait for this to come out! Most notably because I'm a long time fan of Ubisoft, and they rank right up there with Bethesda softworks as my favorite gamehouse.

Right now, though, right now I'm fucking TIRED and I just found out ten minutes ago I can't go to sleep until 22:00 hours-ish, because somebody wants me to record something from the telly, and switching of cassettes is involved. She can't tape it at her own place, because she doesn't get the channel required. Then again I guess it's okay since I wasn't really planning on anything for later today. Still annoys the hell out of me, it does.

Oh! I was also going to rant about an old friend of mine suddenly appearing out of nowhere and inviting me over to join a Trinity pbp! Like the start of my rant went, I haven't tried many other mediums of RP, barring the Palace, so this has me a tad frightened... I only know my friend from all the players, and I've never played a pbp before. "Sure," he says "but it's not like it'll be hard, since it's not exactly fast-paced." Okay, those weren't his words, but it was his message. And I guess he has a point, but still, I dono...

...be that as it may, snow's working on a character already. We were thinking of an Irish EK, something of a criminal concept from the Europe in ruins. I don't know what, if anything, comes out of his plans, but hopefully it's something. I guess, all phobias aside, it would be nice to try a new mode of RPing. Not to mention to have another shot at Trinity, since I only have fond memories of the game - though I have to admit to having only played two series, and running one. Both the ST's who ran a game for us were very good, amongst the best ST's I've had the priviledge of playing with. And I liked both the characters I used. We'll see.

Despite my tired state, I'm happy I decided to start a journal again. And since I can't sleep, I'm going to use this tired to make some advancement on an Exalted plotline. And maybe try to get my CoC; DCotE working, finally. The display drivers are taking a piss on me, and I only have the proper lack of patience to deal with them bastards when I'm either a) tired, or b) drunk off my ass.

On a last, positive side, mom left home for a week. On the downside, mom left home for a week.
She left me with money, but that means I have to go buy food.
I suck at doing that shite, it just means that I'll either be lazy and starve - the money going to my sister, or I'll spend two days roaring drunk, and starve afterwards.
Oh, she also left me with SIX GODDAMN DOGS to take care of.
And it's the kind of dogs that lose bladder control every time you so much as raise your voice to them, and considering how often I do that, well... All I can say is, I wonder what kind of a robot my little pissmasters here end up combining into.

((edit; goddamn typos))